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03 August 2012 @ 12:25 am
 
What I want most is to feel like I'm not just getting through the day. When I wake up, all I think about is what I have to do to make it through the day, just to get back to lying down, rinse, wash, repeat. I don't get to live. I don't get to do things I love to do. All I think of is pain, how to try and make it through the pain, the nausea, the collections agencies calling, all while trying to stay strong and tell myself and everyone that I can do this.

It's really hard and I don't know if I can do this.
 
 
 
alchemy_fire: sherly and johnalchemy_fire on August 3rd, 2012 05:54 am (UTC)
I can't even imagine how do you feel and how hard it is for you to just live day by day with all that pain. I just want to tell you, how I admire you for all your strength. You are my inspiration, whenever my day is rough. I wish I could do something to help... to make it easier. Well, I have no idea what it should be. So, I just want to let you know that I read all your posts and think about you. You are not alone. *hugs*
Jennytunes84 on August 3rd, 2012 07:23 am (UTC)
I just got really teary eyed because knowing that my struggles can help inspire someone else is all I could ever ask for. Thank you so much for being my friend. I hope you're doing well, my dear. I am thinking of you tonight. <3
MegTDJ: SPN - Sam Dean hug MSmeg_tdj on August 3rd, 2012 03:29 pm (UTC)
*hugs* A motto I learned recently is "No single moment is unendurable." You CAN do this. One moment at a time.
Jenny: Cas wingstunes84 on August 7th, 2012 11:40 am (UTC)
Thank you, sweetie. The encouragement means a lot.
primrose_1primrose_1 on August 4th, 2012 12:37 am (UTC)
What if you woke up each day, not thinking about what you have to do to make it through, but instead plan and find ONE bright and beautiful thing you can do to make your day awesome. It doesn't have to be a big thing. Listen to some fabulous music, talk to a wonderful friend, write a LJ post, one thing to make the day worth it. Then the stuff you have to do becomes just the steps to take to the thing you're looking forward to doing.

Of course you can do this! Now reach out to other people who can help you make it feel like you're not doing it alone. *hugs*
Jenny: impalatunes84 on August 7th, 2012 11:41 am (UTC)
I appreciate you very much, hon. Thanks for always having a positive word for me.